One of my favorite pastimes is singing! I love it! Give me a good tune be it via the radio, karaoke, or a live band and I'll be singing along!!! It just makes me feel good.
My husband is musically inclined. He can pick up most instruments and figure out how to use them and not to badly at that. He's been a drummer for 30+ years. Ayup...he's one of those people! (Laura turns green with envy) Though I can sing I can't play a single instrument. I've tried and failed miserably.
Well, anyway, the point of this is that I have a decision to make. My hubby and I have tried a few times to put a band together with me singing...we are even trying yet again at this very moment and due to one problem or another it just hasn't worked out. I was handed an opportunity to try out with a different band. I'm just not sure what to do about it.
You see I'm not what you would expect of your average lead singer of a band. Lead singers aren't average people. They (or they seem to me anyway) are outgoing, confident and gifted people. In my case I can sing fairly well and on the outside I appear confident enough, but on the inside I'm a quaking bowl of jello. I FEAR performing in public. Once I get past the first song I'm usually alright, but before during and after that first my knees and hands shake, my heart races and I feel like I could fall on my face. It's terrifying!!!
I wonder also, if I try this on my own without my hubby there as a fall back if I could over come my fear...if part of my fear has to do with disappointing him and at the same time I wonder if doing this on my own would be disloyal to him.
Well, there's alot to think about...more later...
Laura
